Calling it “one of the biggest challenges,” Heidi told ET that she felt it was “my fault” for having trouble conceiving, adding, “I felt like I was older. I felt a little bit maybe broken down with it. I just felt like maybe I missed an opportunity, maybe I made a bad choice. ”
However, the reality star acknowledged that she was grateful for the life, opportunities and family that she and Spencer had created.
“I’m so blessed and I’m healthy and I have a beautiful son, so I don’t want to sound ungrateful at all because I am so grateful for everything that I have,” she shared. “At the same time, I was just hoping to have one more chance to be a mom to a little baby and to have that opportunity for my son to experience having a sibling.”
Now, Heidi is reminding herself to enjoy each day of her pregnancy as it comes.
“I need to remember to just slow down, enjoy the time because this might be my last pregnancy — it most likely will — so I’m just trying to enjoy it as much as I can and soak it up and remind myself,” she said. “I personally love being pregnant. I think it’s one of the most incredible experiences. It’s such a miracle. It’s such a blessing and so, I just want to really embrace it.”